Sharing this more for public accountability. Left picture : Clean on 90 days no drinking. Right picture drunk, inflamed. Besides being comically fat and weak minded, for a decade alcohol has robbed me of clarity, focus, money, my true intelligence and hangovers have locked me in the a state of plateau/average. One of my favorite things is boozy dinners/nights out with friends and family. Because of this I've tried every solution to balance this with success. 30 days no drinking, only drinking twice a month, 2 drink rule, only drinking high high high end alcohol to prevent a hangover. HELL I've even experimented by getting a hyperbaric chamber, IVs, pounding bags of vitamins when I am out. The result is ALWAYS the same. Separation from my purpose and reason for being/the things that truly make me full-filled. There is no "balance" with this shit. It is the devil/negative energy luring you in with instant gratification to then force you into "coasting" and weak mindedness to separate you from your purpose. Thats the whole point of sin/devil/negative energy (I'm not referring to religious shit) to stop you from being full-filled/achieving your purpose. The best way to do that is to tempt you with instant gratification. Even after 90 days no drinking I felt I could responsibly incorporate this "sin" in my life (my definition of sin choosing the weak choice that takes you from your purpose...not religious stuff). Nope. During the 90 days my income tripled, my marketing was 10 years ahead of my competitors, I was moving at light speed. This last month I tried to be responsible with this : the result is "average" creeping back into my life. Just public-ally announcing to hold myself accountable : I'm fucking done for at least 1 calendar year. Maybe longer, but this habit is out for a long time. Also maybe the few people that suffer from this and think there is some form of balance that can be achieved. If you want to be "good enough" maybe. If you want to be great, the best...No. Just stop. It's not going to happen.